Name : Tan SiKai
Rank : SOLDIER 2nd Class
Birthdate : 10 April 1989
Birthplace: Singapore
Ethnicity : Chinese
Religion : Christianity
Gender : Male
Height : 167
Weight : 56
Values:
-Commitment
-Trust
-Truth
-Reason
Personality:
ISFJ (Jung Typology Test) - I-22%, S-1%, F-25%, J-33%
Explanation:
* slightly expressed introvert
* slightly expressed sensing personality
* moderately expressed feeling personality
* moderately expressed judging personality
Traits:
* Large, rich inner store of information which they gather about people
* Memory for details which are important to them
* In-tune with surroundings - sense of space and function
* Can be depended on to follow things through to completion
* Will work long and hard to see that jobs get done
* Stable, practical, down-to-earth - Dislike working with theory and abstract thought unnecessarily
* Dislike doing things which don't make sense to them
* Value security, tradition, and peaceful living
* Service-oriented: focused on what people need and want
* Kind and considerate
* Likely to put others' needs above their own
* Learn best with hands-on training
* Enjoy creating structure and order
* Take their responsibilities seriously
* Extremely uncomfortable with conflict and confrontation
Career-defining traits:
1) extremely interested and in-tune with how other people are feeling
2) enjoy creating structure and order, and are extremely good at it.
Ideally, the ISFJ will choose a career in which they can use their exceptional people-observation skills to determine what people
want or need, and then use their excellent organizational abilities to create a structured plan or environment for achieving what
people want.
Relationships:
+Committed
+Difficulty in leaving a relationship which is bad, or accepting that it's over
+Selfless
+Intimacy as a tangible way of strengthening their relationship bonds
+Warm
+Difficulty with conflict situations
+Dependable and affectionate lovers
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, the ISFJ's natural partner is the ESTP, or the ESFP. ISFJ's dominant function of Introverted Sensing is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Extraverted Sensing.
More at:
ISFJ Profile or
Protrait of
an ISFJ
"To be a hero you got to have dreams... and honor" - Angeal
~More about yesterday..~
Thursday, 26 July 2007
Yesterday was racial harmony day. As such our teachers dress up to represent the different ethnic groups. Of course, most of them choose the represent the Eurasians, wearing Westernised clothes to school. But of course for the minority, there is something good to look at.
The best dressing teacher (for those that taught my class) was... Ms Lin, our physics teacher! She wore the traditional costume of a Korean woman that was engaged. Wearing a Hanbuk to class, she does look very Korean if you ask me. As usual with the snippets of her life, she introduce us to the hanbuk. There is around 3 layers if I remember correctly. It must have been really tough on her to wear this in Singapore. I still remember in Beijing I wore only 4 layers for 10 degrees Celsius (though its very cold) and it doesn't break my silhouette. Anyway the Hanbuk serves only to enhance her *ahem* cuteness. I guess she must have melted a few more hearts in it. If only she wore the Korean shoe and put on their hairstyle, it would have been great.
So as for how she looks like:
looks like some typical korean teacher
Omg just look at her composure. Its so stable and firm. Its just sad my pictures were dark. I dunno how to use photoshop to brighten the image. But she really look like a Korean. Just can't say enough of it. Haha..
(hey ms lin, wear jap clothes on grad nite k? haha..)
posted at : 20:18
~Not a bad day..~
Hmmm today I decided to deny myself (i.e. I fasted) again, after yesterday's unsuccessful self-denial. Yesterday while I was fasting, out of my usual behaviour I broke the fast. Just before taking the Australian Math (which I think I wasted my time.. too difficult for my pea-brain..), Erik's clique was passing around M&Ms. Subconcious of what I was doing, I asked for it. Only after I finished a piece and took out another then I realised my actions. By then it was too late. I can only repent later. Still, I continued my fast till 7pm, with many temptations (racial harmony ma.. many food stalls.. Wonder why did I choose that day.. missed good food..).
So how's the denial today? It was still the same. I ate a sweet Niang passed to me, and only during lunch break do I realised my actions. Its gonna be another day of repentence. Hai.. Wasted effort..
Anyway what's good for today? My "cousin" Wenqi had said that I've changed! From very random person to who I am now. So what does it mean? Basically, a random person can be perceived as weird, and the opposite of that is normal. I am now more approachable. ^^,
What else? I had a GP compre test today. It was on meritocracy. Though I won't say I will score, but I feel that the paper was manageable. Hope that it was not just a passing feeling.
Most importantly, I gained a slight revelation! On the bus home, I realised God is calling us to be like the trees, being resourceful, standing firm, bearing fruits, being outwardly beautiful (don't get the wrong idea..), etc. I prepared a little sermon on it. It wasn't done yet, but I feel that it's gonna be great. Whahaha!!
Like a mighty tree shining forth the glory of the Lord!
P.S. I had to deny myself as my discipline has been failing.. Homework undone, sleep during lectures and class.. can't believe it..
posted at : 18:48
~Breaking Free~
Sunday, 22 July 2007
Verse #1Troy : We’re soaring, flying;
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach.
Gabriella: If we’re trying;
So we’re breaking free.
Troy : You know the world can see us;
In a way that’s different than who we are.
Gabriella: Creating space between us,
Till we’re separate hearts.
Bridge #1Both : But your faith it gives me strength,
Strength to believe.
Chorus #1(Troy : We’re breakin’ free)
Gabriella: We’re soaring
Troy : Flying
Both : There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
Troy : If we’re trying
Both : Yeah, we’re breaking free (Troy: Oh, we’re breaking free)
Gabriella: Oh~
Verse #2Troy : Can you feel it building;
Like a wave the ocean just can’t control.
Gabriella: Connected by a feeling,
Oh~, in our very souls.
Bridge #2Both : Rising till it lifts us up,
So every one can see.
Chorus #2Troy : We’re breaking free!
Gabriella: We’re soaring,
Troy : Flying.
Both : There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach.
Troy : If we’re trying
Yeah we’re breaking free
Oh~ we'r breaking free
Gabriella: Oh~ running,
Troy : Climbing.
To get to that place
Both : To be all that we can be.
Troy : Now’s the time,
Both : So we’re breaking free. (Troy: We’re breaking free.)
Gabriella: Oh~ , yeah
BridgeTroy : More than hope, More than faith;
Gabriella: This is true, This is fate;
And together
Both : We see it coming.
Troy : More than you, More than me;
Gabriella: Not a want, But a need;
Both : Both of us breaking free!
Chorus #3Gabriella: Soaring,
Troy : Flying.
Both : There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach.
If we’re trying,
Troy : Yeah we’re breaking free.
Gabriella: Breaking free.
Gabriella: Were running
Troy : Oh~, climbing
Both : To get to the place
To be all that we can be.
Now’s the time (Troy: Now’s the time)
Gabriella: So we’re breaking free. (Troy: Oh~, we’re breaking free.)
Gabriella: Oh~
Both : You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than
Who we are.
Great song from High School Musical.. Yeah breaking free from this world, to be in this world but not of this world..
Rar~!
posted at : 19:01
~Sianx..~
*sigh*.. Today's weather isn't good.. Raining all day.. No mood.. If not for the fact that I had to go church, I would've hiberated for the rest of the day..
*sigh*.. Still have quite a number of homework to complete, at an outstanding number of 7!! How can I complete in 2 days?
*sigh*.. Life is so dull now.. How I wish yesterday wasn't over; Movie and shopping (for the sake of accompanying friends.. not that I like to shop..), I can enjoy life through and through..
*sigh*.. Releasing my boredom.. I shall follow Ruby.. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, .. okay time to start working.. Blog again later.. I hope..
Rar~!
posted at : 18:49
~Me~
Thursday, 19 July 2007
Oh well since its a long time from my last blog, its time i update it again..
Well what had I been thinking these days? After much thought ( or lack of it leading to "much" in that sense), I realise that I am a person who's life is defined by my future, a.k.a. the "perceived future" person.
So what are my plans for my future? Simply:
Career:-A B.Sc in Material Science & Engineering by age of 23
-A M.Sc in Physics at MIT by 26
-A Ph.D in Physics at Harvard by 28
-A Nobel Prize in Physics
Belief:-A Pastor of a Church
-Spiritually Hungry
-Strong in the Word
-Filled with Love for Mankind
Heath:-Healthy and active individual
-Skilled and regular badminton player
-Frequent runner and swimmer
Marriage:-Get married, have many kids ^^,
-Loving my wife thoroughly, for she is my very foundation and the fruit of my labour.
-Live in a concept house (still thinking which concept is nice for me..)
.. Hmmm many lofty and high goals, but not unreachable. I will try every possible way and doing my best in every way just to reach these goals. (That's why you may at times hear me mention about winning someone in exam.. its just my way of overcoming myself, to make use to this motivation to push myself to my limit.. If it offend, sorry for any transgression.. Just hope for your acceptance of my way of life, just as I to you..)
Its always my wish to do research, and I want to be the best in this field. This may be because when I was young, I used to play with Lego. It teaches me to use bits and pieces to construct an object creatively. It also teaches me to smash every single object so that a better one can be created. I must never be afraid to go against all established doctrine and challenge them.
I also have this wish to be the light for our next generation to know that Nobel Prizes are within reach by just committing into their field, to be useful to my society. I love to guide, showing possibilites to others, so that they may too fulfill their destiny. But first I must establish myself.
The only fear that I have is that my vision of my future fades. This is a very serious problem, for my future is my defining point; it defines who I am by telling who I am going to be. I can visualise myself, when I lost my goals one day, it will be the end of me. Terrifying thought..
For those who share the same interest, this website might prove useful:
www.phys.uu.nl/~thooft/theorist.html
posted at : 22:11
~Harry Potter's Fate~
Thursday, 5 July 2007
As the time draws near to the HP's last book, I went on to search on some theories on both past and upcoming book. I would recommend this site:
http://www.mugglenet.com/editorials/thenorthtower/Its a super cool discussion on Prophecies and others made using Literature. Currently I only completed till NT7, so can only talk about the prophecies.
"The One with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches... Born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies.... and the Dark Lord will mark him as his equal, but he will have power the Dark Lord knows not... and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives... The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord will be born as the seventh month dies..."
-Professor Trelawney
I like the way Maline interpreted the prophecy. For most of us, "the One" would immediately struck us as Harry, but she noticed the fact that the prophecy did not specifically mention Harry. This uncertainty allowed her to reason that the "Dark Lord" may be killed not by Harry, but by the power inside Harry, like Love, Loyalty, etc. Lord Voldemort knew neither of these things, thus fulfilling the prophecy that "the One" may just be these values. Moreover look at the fact "Born to those.." , thus we can assume that it is the power of Light Side (StarWars terminology) that can kill the "Dark Lord". Look too that there are 2 "one"s mentioned, "the One" and "the one". We would usually caps those that are like "God" "Truth" and "the Way", implying something not so much of physical form but penetrate into the spiritual. "the one" should refer to a person, since he is "born", creating a distinction between "the One" that will vanquish the "Dark Lord" and "the one" who will possess this power.
Also the fact that "Dark Lord" is used instead of Tom Riddle. This opens up the possibility that "Dark Lord" may just refer to the Evil itself and not the person. Note that the word "vanquished" is used to describle how the "Dark Lord" die. According to Longman Dictionary of Comtemporary English, "vanquish" means to defeat someone or something completely. The word to note is "defeat" instead of eliminate. In a war a country may suffer a defeat and lost the will to continue fighting, but it can still be a country. Hence the "Dark Lord" may not necessary meant Tom Riddle himself but the Lord Voldemort, the Evil, residing in him. This give the possibility that at book 7 Lord Voldemort may not physically die but just redeemed from Evil.
Now for a bit of digression:
"..but he will have power the Dark Lord knows not.."
This verse seemed to remind me of a verse in the bible "Then light came, and darkness does not understand it." (forgot where I heard it.) It reminds me of lighting up a candle in a dark room, and suddenly all darkness tries to hide. In order to fully remove of the darkness, a very powerful lighting system has to be used (so that diffraction, reflection and all can overwhelm the whole place with light). This means that the power in Harry has to develop to its full potential. It will be interesting to read how Harry overcomes the darkness in him, the thirst for revenge etc. I predict that in the end (in agreement to maline) that Harry will be successful in killing Lord Voldemort but spares Tom Riddle's life, perhaps overwhelming Lord Voldemort with the power of Love by sacrificing himself and not fighting back at all. Lord Voldemort will "self-destruct" in trying to understand the meaning.
Okay so much for prophecies. Wa Literature sure looks fun. Perhaps study it someday.. haha.. Anyway enjoy the 7th book, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Hopes it turns out good.
posted at : 21:58
~My Results~
Well mid-years has passed and now for the results..
Physics B
Math A
Chem D
(Econs S)
Wa it's really bad. From my end-of-year last year of AAA to BAD.. slack too much sia..
Well regrets are of no use..
Lessons:
-Dont play so much..
-Dont study only the day before..
-Be aware of what I'm writing..
-Dont slack during the paper..
-Dont spend like 5min chosing a question to do!!
Dunno what to post liao.. Hai..
Must strive harder!! Beat Xiu Xiu and Yi Yong! Most importantly myself!!
Rrrr!!
posted at : 18:19
~Friends~
Tuesday, 3 July 2007
Hmmm.. Not sure what was wrong with me today.. Just feeling depressed..
Been thinking about my friends, new and old, long and short. Friends have always been the centrepoint of my life. They helped defined the fullness of my life. My highest point in time was never me achieving good grades, going overseas, nor even visiting relatives (unless I consider them as friends..).
As I reflect, I found my social circle fading away. Secondary school friends are drifting away, even current friends, all flowing away, so smoothly till it took me some time to recognise the problem. Acquaintance becoming strangers, friends becoming acquaintance, close friends becoming friends.. When will this cycle ever ends? Each year I seemed to be facing the same problem.
Was it just me? Was it something that I'd done? Or was it for real? Each engaged in his/her own life, preoccupied with their life to bother about each other. Was all just an illusion, just a sudden surge of emotions dictating our lives?
Who's what you call friends? Who are friends? It is said that a friend in need is a friend indeed. It says that we must be relevant to our friends to be their friends. Are there any exceptions?
It is hard to continually be relevant. People learn, people move. This is the hard fact of life. No matter how much it was said to move as a team, team-lineups always change.
Is this a wrong investment from the beginning? Is this risk just too high? Should we just focus on our goals? How should we diversify? Would diversification ensure maximum welfare benefits?
So many questions, so little answers..
“Even though we've changed and we're all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when the tears fall or the smile spreads across our face, we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we're not all still friends.”
How I wish I could just say this..
posted at : 23:24
~Monday Blues~
Monday, 2 July 2007
Haiz, I am so dumb. Just because that I had thrown away my honor and my pride this 2 weeks, saving as much as I could doesn't give me the right to dictate the way people want things to turn out. Who am I? What makes my opinion better than others? Why can't I give others a say, but imposing on them my will?
This 2 weeks I had been saving up for a friend's birthday (best friends actually..). As I suffered a cut in my income from average of $10 a day to average of $6, my initial projection of saving up $105 by 6 July was in a mess. Trying my best to live up the Word, that let my "yes" be a "yes" and "no" be a "no", I forgo my hunger and skipped lunch as much as I could. Fearing that by going home to have lunch my mom will cut my pocket money further, I chose to stay with my friends (those in school.. another group..) and have "lunch" with them. I was reduced to such a stage where I had to give in to their pity and eat some of their food. In the past I would think that wasting food is bad, and so I would finish their leftovers; now I would think that this is the way to relief my hunger, even if for a while.
I must say that even in writing this blog I am not expecting any additional pity or even offerings. I will flatly reject all these.
Guess it was my body's natural reaction that took over. While conversing with Dorcas earlier, I told her straight off that I expect the money to be put to good use; it will definitely not be used on some cheap meal like Kopitiam. I didn't expect myself to speak with such fierceness. Even with Nur later I was also speaking in such a tone, nearly got myself into a arguement.
Hai hard it is to life up the Beattitudes, especially the 2nd verse "Blessed are those who are meek.." . To be meek is not having no opinion but not speaking them out against someone or something, but at most giving suggestions. As I try to have opinions, I realise my impulse gets over me quickly, abit too quickly.
Haiz my nature really doesn't give me an easy route to acquiring the Beautiful Attitudes. Impulsive, can't keep my mouth tightly shut. Sometimes I think Xiuyi is really wrong for saying "shut up" in front of my face, but now I think I really deserve to shut up.
The route is long and hard. Sometimes I feel like giving up. Only by faith can I reach the end.
The question is,
do I have that faith..?
posted at : 21:54
March 2007
